Something new...Something unexpected...

I've been talking to JQ, despite my initial hesitiation. He's nice and I like him. There - I said it!

The past two nights we've burned the midnight oil talking, me learning more about the homeland I've never seen and him picking my brain, marveling at the distinct differences but the sameness of the country that he just left and his new home.

I like him and I will add that caveat "as a friend" very strongly. I think he really likes me but what strikes me most is that its not my beauty he is looking at particularly. Its my mind. Thats something new, something that I havent always felt people could look past. I'm no Marilyn Monroe (or Angelina, or Kerry, or Sanaa) but I'm easy on the eyes. I have sex appeal. I like that I have sex appeal, but it gets in the way. Some men will look for the easy score and the door. It happens. Its happened more than I care to admit - and without me seeing it coming. Call me naive, it fits.

He's a little taken with me. I think its because he's lonely, he doesnt know many people here and he's starved for human companionship that isnt his family or coworkers. Someone new to talk to, share experiences with and someone he can be himself with. Completely understandable.

Our discussion last night was filled with his questions and I laughed, telling him he was thinking entirely too much. Am I looking for a serious relationship? How he wished we met another way, not through Dad "The Middleman" hahaaa...How he would have liked to approach me and get to know me on his own. I think he wants to know that I am interested in him for his own merit and whether I'm humoring him. You just met me, I laughed...take it easy...

For the most part, I'm learning to take life one day at a time. I was pretty clear though, that my life is moving in a direction of my own choosing. Career first. My parents can beg or cajole and talk until their tongues fall out of their mouths... I choose every step I take. I'm keeping my cards close to the vest and pumping out the friend vibe. He gets it.